FAITH

Many times in my life I have leaned upon my Savior. He listens to my nagging, my tears, my joys, my frustrations. He is always by my side.  Years ago when I was a newly married wife, with a newborn and not quite 22yrs old, I felt alone and scared. Even with a devoted husband asleep in the other room and parents within a ten minute drive; I felt abandoned.   I felt in over my head, exhausted. I was trying to wrap my head around being a wife and a mother, while getting my degree. It wasn't the picture perfect life I had once dreamed of. We were strapped financially,  struggling spiritually and felt at the end of our ropes.  I remember kneeling on the kitchen linoleum balling my eyes out. I shook and trembled in heart ache. I felt I had no place to lean. It was my time to test my faith.  Was Christ really there?  Did He love me? How could His atonement make me whole?  Would he hear me and answer my souls anguish cries?  And then I began, "Heavenly Father.....are you there?  My heart aches and I need to feel you close.   Please Lord."  I sat repeating those words and soon I felt this warmth wrap around me tightly, as though I was being embraced. My heart calmed and I felt peace.  I didn't have all the answers to my questions, instead I had the love of the Savior giving me the courage to find the answers. I will never forget that moment where I leaned so hard I fell, right into the Lord's loving arms.
He lives and loves me.  He loves everyone. My Grand Father when saying good bye always pulls me near and whispers "You're my best girl!  Don't tell your sisters though, we don't want to hurt their feelings!"   Then he'd wink and move on to the next sister and repeat the same good bye. I chuckle at my grandpa and yet I I feel that I truly am his best girl. I feel that relationship with my Savior as well.   I  don't know how his pure love makes everyone feel like his favorite.
I believe in modern day prophets and revelation to help me return to live with him. I know that President Monson is the true and living prophet today. I know the Book of Mormon is another Testament of Christ and by reading it I have drawn closer to him.  I know that through prayer and study of His words we can be guided to lift and inspire other through service.  To learn more click below…

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